It's...over? Wow...still letting that settle in. After the wedding, I was more tired than I've been in a LONG time. I was rather dysfunctional actually...got home, refused to even try and unload my car, jumped in the shower, and collapsed in bed. And here I am, about 12 hours later, having slept for a little over 10 hours, and so happy for Ryan and Teresa. The wedding obviously didn't go off without a hitch, but hopefully from the pov of the attendees, things went smoothly enough. The whole day was rather insane, trying to stay on schedule, get people moving, adjust to the last minute changes, go with the flow even when my brain was yelling that the schedule and plans rule, seeing one of my best friends married and full of joy...in terms of one of more mentally and physically challenging events of my life, this was it.
I was trying to compare it to a catering event and couldn't really. You know...that's my business, that's my job. And yes, there is always a good amount of stress involved, but at the end of the day, I'm exhausted purely because I've been on my feet for over 12 hours. Some stress in getting things to the location hot and on time, but really, it's a physical type of exhaustion.
Yesterday was that and so much more. You're trying to make your friends and their family happy...trying to accommodate everyone, putting on that face that says, yes I'm working hard, but of course I'm still happy to be chit-chatting with you right now :P, making logistics work when it seems like there's no possible way to get them to work, re-working schedules at the 11th hour, and all the while, needing to suppress for the time-being the emotions that I want to just sit in because of the magnitude of the day and the strong emotions that come with it.
Even as I sit here now, I think this is the first time I've really let myself just be happy and reflect on the significance of yesterday. Like someone was talking to me about on Friday, it's not like throwing a party where the party's over and life moves on. The party's over, but the marriage has just begun. Even as I'm not the one who got married, there's some significance to that for me as a friend.
Anyway, I'm probably over-dramatizing at the moment, as I'm still rather exhausted, and my brain is trying oh so hard to get out of the fog it's in. Ok, I'm a logistics and detail-oriented person, but my brain seriously felt like it was going to explode yesterday. The balance of things that I had to think about was mildly ridiculous. Haha...good times :P. But yes, it's over...I feel some sense of a void, not having this immense thing to think about in the future. A number of other things, even LAUP and the summer program seem miniscule in comparison.
Ok...time to take a day or two to recuperate, and then move the brain onto the next thing...
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That was a beautiful wedding Jess! You did an awesome job! It was fun to watch you in action. :)